


We lost our Vizsla, Sugar, in January 2009. Its been two months and I still miss her every day. So do her brothers, Bear and her couch buddy there, Buzz (all former foster dogs and/or “unadoptables”). She was my constant companion and seemed to understand why she sometimes missed out on Mom’s attention since during her six years with me, I have always been surrounded by foster dogs. I hope they do understand because the fosters seem to get the most attention.Sugar was originally a foster dog, and came from right here in Tehachapi on Curry Street. You may have seen her running loose at night. The family that had her then at age 8 used to shut her out of the house all night and she ran around in the orchards (where the fire station and housing tract is now). Then she got shut inside all day while they were gone. What a life, huh? One night, someone shot her with bird shot and she ran through some barbed wire trying to escape (I’m sure she didn’t realize she was trespassing). The next day I got a frantic call from my friend Matt, who said they were going to put her down because she was bloody (ears bleed like crazy) and they had no money for the vet. I rushed over there and took her home. She lost the sight in her right eye from one BB and I never was able to pick all of them out, she had them under her skin all over her body.During the next few months, this foster dog began to accompany me everywhere and when I first brought her out to the property that later became Canine Canyon Ranch, her face lit up with a huge happy dog smile as she bounded around. It was then that I knew that I would keep her, she was already “my” dog. I’ve had many hundreds of dogs go through my rescue in the past several years and I’ve only wanted to keep a handful. Sugar was special and I miss her so much.Sugar lasted another five years after I moved out to the ranch and she was with me every step of the way as I spent a whole year developing the property: she sat in the shade while I cut down a hundred dead trees, followed me around behind the quad over hill and dale, and all three of the dogs, and several fosters, suffered through four months of living in the barn, freezing through March until the house was delivered in sweltering July. She got to swim in the dog pool, roll in deer poop, chase rabbits and have a normal dog life. She was the first dog to be bitten by a rattlesnake here too, and I almost lost her then, but she survived and remained healthy until about late November 2008. She absolutely loved this ranch and I loved seeing her so happy.Vizslas are quite athletic, and Sugar was typical of her breed. She could dead jump a six foot fence (but usually didn’t-at least not when Mom could see her!) and she loved jumping through the window of the truck so she could go with Mom to deliver firewood. Well, in late November, I broke my arm, so no firewood this year, but that didn’t stop Sugar wanting to be in the truck. She started looking older, losing bladder control, getting tremors, and then she began to run into the furniture. I told my wonderful husband that my intuition told me her time was close and that I didn’t want her to live completely blind, or not able to run around, she just wouldn’t be happy, I knew that. Turns out, I didn’t have to make that decision. One day she jumped up and didn’t realize that the truck window was closed! It appeared that she had hurt her shoulder and she began limping, then things seemed better and she was bounding around like usual, but I still had a nagging feeling.The busy holidays with out of town family visits passed and she started going downhill, and fast. We went to Tehachapi Vet Hospital on January 6, 2009. Dr. Steve took one look at her sitting stiffly, trying to get up, and he told me what I already suspected: Sugar had cancer in her shoulder. She probably had it already, but the injury caused the cells to start rapidly accelerating the process. We left, and I waited for my husband to come home to say goodbye. We put her down that evening and buried her on top of a beautiful sunny knoll facing north here, on the ranch where she was happiest. I had already dug her grave and written her a goodbye letter, thanking her for all of the wonderful time that I was blessed to spend with her and telling her how sorry was that I hadn’t realized sooner that she was sufering. I guess I still feel a little bit guilty about that and I wish I had listened to the little voice in my head sooner. I’ll know next time, and I hope that all of you reading this will realize what a gift it is to know when your companion animal needs YOU to let go. Being able to LET them go is one of the greatest gifts that you can give to THEM and it honors the life that you shared together. They will hang on, suffering, until you let them know that its OK for them to let go. They know already, but they don’t want you to suffer. So give the greatest gift ,and say goodbye when its time.Sugar’s grave was a cold place for the past two months, but now it is covered with lovely green grass and I will sit there with her spirit, enjoy the sunrises and sunsets, and think of my best friend, Sugarbear. I will continue to miss her but I know she is up there running free and out of pain now. Someday, I will see her again at the Rainbow Bridge, and she can cross over with me, right in front of the pack of hundreds of rescues that I was privileged to have pass through my life. And if they aren’t welcome where I am headed, then I won’t go either!Goodbye, sweet Sugarbear. I miss you so much, and I will never, ever forget “my girl.”Hug your dog for me, please? And thanks for listening. Writing this made me feel better.
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